I do remember, when I was child, that my parents, other families, teacher in school, asked me about my dream, exactly my brilliant and beautiful dream. I easily mentioned that a doctor was what I wanted to be. My friends did the same, and many others wanted to be a pilot, a president, and a banker. There were a few friends who had no dream, but soon their parent and teacher urged them to think about even built a dream. These all convinced me that dreaming was very important thing in life, although I thought that the dream I mentioned was only for pleasure and I did not think how to make it happened.
Upon enrolling junior senior high school, I began to rationally make my exact dream relied on my passion. I began to believe that dreaming would help me to go reaching my bright future. Dreaming would stimulate me to study hard, qualify myself, and not to give up. Dream would actually guide me to be one I wanted and give me good chances to be able to contribute widely to my society. Yes, I also believed that a success of someone was measured by his contribution.
Since then I had been attended many forums of motivation training dealing with the way to be good and brilliant young people who would catch many dream steps in their life. Most of trained motivate us the participants to build a dream and then make it happened. They said that “dream is free”, or “have a dream”. It was right once they said that dream was free. Everyone did not need much money to dream. It was really free so that no reason could be told to ignore dreaming.
Being a university student in a big city like Surabaya, where everything was measured by amount of money, I then realized that dreaming was not as free as catching it. I was busy to work and collect a lot of money to survive in the city. I could not rely on my parents who had told me that they had no money to fulfill my need. In this condition, I hardly thought about my dream which I built carefully before. My problem of leaving cost pulled me to focus on how to survive more than beautifying dream. The wise word “dream is free” did not influence me at that time.
Graduated from the university last two years, I wished that the difficult condition would be gone. But, the fact showed an opposition. The life went harder and harder. I had to fight for take my dream soon while I was fighting for surviving. The certificate of my bachelor degree did not help much. As I want to be a lecturer of a university, I intended to continue my study to master degree, knowing that an admitted lecturer was who had finished his master degree. Nothing could be changed in that. I was still optimistic, that I would pursue graduate study of mine while applying scholarship. Then a new challenge came to me, when I realized that many scholarships were competitive enough and asked for not easy requirements. I then began to say this in my heart:
be careful to dream, because it is very expensive, once problem has come to you, the dream goes surely leaving you!
There was my friend who looked difficult to get any scholarship he had applied for. He wanted to study abroad, notably in English-speaking country, but his English skill was very poor as he told me. He should give “big sacrifices” to his dream, such as money, time, mind, and energy. One thing very hard was that he joined real test of English proficiency until four times to get sufficient score. For each test he should pay IDR 2,7000,000,00. What a price! I believed tan I was able to give most of my time, mind and energy to my dream, but a money?
My friend’s experience described how catching dream was very difficult and expensive. Because he had obeyed the rule and paid the price, he got his dream and he is now studying in New York, United States of America. Meanwhile, I am now giving my time, mind and energy to my dream more than money, hoping that they will be my big sacrifice instead of the money.
And you, what do you do to make your dream happened? One thing you must know: if you are not totally fighting for your dream, then it will kill you!
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